Healing Trauma & Embryology
I realised embryology is an extra tool of knowledge to help me understand better my oldest trauma print anchored in my system, the Vanishing Twin Phenomenon.
I wish to comprehend as much as my body and brain allow me to, about what happen and when. From the common knowledge of embryology, tapping into the consciousness of the existing “to be discovered” print of past experiences, I have encountered during my embryonic state in becoming a human. I am referring here, to the first days and weeks of my existence.
The building of the human’s developmental patterns are registered cellularly, by the Autonomic Nervous System and in fluids and blood.
Because there is past traumatic experience (that was 3 years ago still unconscious to me), I can now witness the movements, sensations and emotions that occurred during the complex process of surviving while my twin was dying. This is possible because of my full developed somatic capacities and pre-frontal cortex, which as an embryo I didn’t have yet .
The healing is about going back to the event in embodying, meaning feeling the body’s sensations and emotions coupled up, of all stages of the process, but certainly to witness it in full presence so the mind can learn about what happen and evolve from it.
Looking and observing my personal process, I can only share to you what I have experienced and what came out of it.
It seems that the Pre-fontal Cortex (what we call the mind) is a very important aspect of the healing process, to allow the release of pain and emotions but also to provide the important following step, the rising above the traumatic print for it to become a “positive integrated “past memory and not a blockage that express itself in “negative” deep core beliefs and rigide behavioural patterns.
For me it went this way, I first felt the bodily sensations and emotions not knowing what was happening. I stayed open to the clear need and signs of the system to express the physiological and emotional print of what happen to me. Then came the willingness to put words to my bodily experiences in the search of trying to find outside knowledge that can support and explain what and why I felt what I am experiencing in sessions.
I felt the courage and the willingness in me to let the process come to me instead of blocking it by my fear and my ignorance. I am still today discovering more phases and outcomes of what the Vanishing Twin Phenomenon provoked in me. It’s a long and deep process and I don’t know yet when it will end.
Until then, I will keep sharing and and guiding those who believe or feel the resonance of my story.
If you believe you have been a twin or you are a twin, and you wish some support to overcome any traumatic past events, I will be happy to assist you.
If you wish to read more about embryology, I am following Jaap van der Wal, who shares his embryosophy through his website, Visit the link, and through many courses and workshop in Europe and USA.
